🥄🥄🥄Sam lives here 🥄🥄🥄

I think I'm in love with someone again but it's weird because I'm also in love with my boyfriend and obv I know what poly is but I don't know if it applies to me and at the same time it is MISERABLE being in love with this person[not boyfriend, thats really nice honestly] because other person will never love me back like this and it sucks honestly

SO i know this guy and he's cool and smart and awesome and amazing and fun to talk to and I enjoy their presence ALOT and he's really just like everything ever. 12/10 would recommend.

I hadn't realized how much that was weighing on me, genuinely, I don't think i went longer than a few hours a day without thinking about it. I was having dreams about it, and it was like, affecting me really fucking badly 💀

It's over now, but like damnnnnn I act like I was a victim or smth stupid

I wish I could understand, I want to understand so badly. I want to know why I can't understand. I know I did something wrong, and I thought I knew what it was. I'm scared to do anything more because I don't want to make it worse. I want to be better, I wish I knew how to do that.